What's your field of specialty?

Okay is it just me, but everyone that I speak to has this dream of becoming a nurse anesthetist. I am sooo sick of hearing that! It makes me feel as though I am just jumping on the band wagon with everyone else. I just read a tweet from someone that said, "I just found out that Nurse Anesthetist is the number 4 highest paying job in America; I made the right choice." Uh helllo, shouldn't you already know that? Shouldn't you already be aware of what it takes more so than the pay? Shouldn't you know that more than 50 percent of those who enter the program don't make it through due to stress! Don't you know that it takes more than just wanting to go to anesthesia school, you have to live it! Now, I most certainly am not saying that these people aren't genuine in their thoughts, but for goodness sake, keep it to yourself until you even make it through Nursing school! I am not 100 percent certain that I would want to go into nurse anesthesia, or FNP, babies, oncology, cc, icu, etc. (geriatrics is out because I have already experienced that with my CNA training, and I know that is a no go.) But there is a key word in my statement to know what I have eliminated out for a field of graduate study, and that is experience. I have never experienced the study of anesthesia, nor any other nursing specialties, so I can't completely and honestly say where I'll end up; but come on folks, stop throwing the term "I am going to be a Nurse Anesthetist" around so loosely. Shadow first, experience what it takes, read, read, read, then shadow some more, live it, breathe it, want it! - Then talk to me again!

So, what's your field of interest? (lol) if you dare to tell me now...

Fall Semester - Digging myself a Grave?

Summer is almost over. Can you believe how fast it has gone by? I am looking forward to the fall semester at school. I have that new anxiety again. Like the first day of class, you know it's going to be exciting but it is still nerve racking as all get out. I am jumping into this semester head on, determined to get back on the grind. I don't know why I briefly lost my enthusiasm, lost the zeal I had in the beginning - causing me to lose interest in anything nursing related. BUT WHAAA?? I can't get that feeling out of the pit of my stomach. The knowing of my called existence. Nursing is my life, nursing is my passion. I want this so bad. Then why did I so easily lose focus? I wanted it all now, right now! I didn't want to put any hardwork into it. Where's the reality in that? Is something worth having not worth fighting for? I got scared. Scared of math, scared of science, scared of all the twenty-something new graduates who made me feel like I am too old for all of this. Career change, oh I can't do that. But I can, I can do that. I have a supportive husband, supportive kids, supportive job. How can I not do this? So yes, I have my passion back, it found me. But then again, I never quite lost it. There were plenty of nights that I stalked all of your pages and envied you, wanted to be right where you are, but I am right where I need to be, getting my life together because one day we'll all have thoughts to share, moments to live and wonders of wisdom to express to each other.

So now that the sentimental moment has come and gone, back to the real deal. My schedule for fall will consist of two Saturday classes (really Saturday?? ) Poli Sci- yep wound up dropping it twice! in time for drop/add, but dropped none the less. Science (this is my back door to Anatomy and Phys, in case I can't get Chem anytime soon); and considering I am not the average person that can manage to get to a 2pm class, looks like it may be awhile before I can take Chem. First class begins at 8 am on a frigging Saturday! Next class is 11:45. Only optimistic point to this (which my hubby so graciously pointed out) is that I can have the rest of the Saturday to study and do schoolwork at the library, kid and distraction free!!

I'm also taking 2 online classes; world lit and philosophy. Hoping to get through all of these, before I tackle math and statistics next semester. Am I digging myself a grave?

Sick and Tired

Who else is sick and tired of drama? What ticked you off today? Sound off!

Peachtree Road Race

Hubby and I ran the Peachtree Road Race today. Came in under an hour and a half / 6.2 miles. Not too bad for newbies! It was hot and of course I wore new sneakers like an idiot, so I now have two new friends - blistery one and blistery two. We had so much fun though nothing mattered; well except crossing the dang finish line. Got a t-shirt to prove it!!! We will definitely be doing this next year if we get selected again. I am editing some photos and videos to post from today (hubby and I only brought the digital camera so alot of the footage is shakey - SEIZURE WARNING! Do not watch if you are prone to have seizures from flashing lights, BLURRY PEOPLE WHIZZING BY, etc.)

HAPPY 4th!!!!